Knotted Desire

A dream from her childhood, a dream of her lifetime
She walked with her doll bride while she was still a child
That's when she started dreaming of having a princess-like wedding when she grows all up...
With whites, peaches, blues and pinks, all colors strewn here and there
Making the place a colorful treat to the eyes and the music which would force you to bounce after every four steps you take
Beautiful heavenly souls moving around in smiles, waiting for the bride, the princess to arrive.
All seated on a green patch of land facing the silent blue ocean, adding to the galore of colors, witnessing an event of her lifetime
The sound of steady wind along with the waves, adding to the music score.

You could just sit and enjoy the whole natural beauty, while your eye would suddenly stop at the groom standing tall at the highest point, an evenly cut out round white platform. There he stood majestically with the finest black suit, shining like a strong man wearing an armor. You can only wonder how a man could manage to look so handsome in a simple black suit with no makeup. 
His face lightens up all of a sudden, the crowd looks stunned and in awe when they see the leading lady take over the attention of all.

Time froze for a moment when the most beautiful woman stepped in. Wearing a gown shining bright under the sun. Beauty, was not the right word to describe this alluring bride. She took away the breath of all the guests with that charm and graceful smile. She seemed to be the chosen one, the one who could win a million hearts in that attire. She takes her first steps on the aisle, with rose petals scattered all over which was a total contrast to her dress. She spilled some sort of magic that no one even moved, her gorgeous looks with few strands of hair falling on her shoulder which dangled every time she took a step forward.

She glanced at everyone exchanging that warm smile, then her eyes turned around to look at the tall man standing at the end of the aisle waiting for her, which seemed to him like a lifetime. She looked like the princess made in heaven, with her prince waiting on the other side.

She reached the end of the rosy aisle, only to see his eyes twinkle with joy. He held her hand, embraced her, whispered how stunning she looked. They then exchanged their vows ...to stay together until death do them apart. Suddenly there was a loud scream which tore the mystic silence. The beautiful bride turned around only to know that her mother was calling her to wrap up the wedding as she was getting late for her school... Sleepy head still she stood up with the bride doll in her hand, wondering that's how fairy tale weddings looked like....serene, majestic and heavenly.

May be one day for sure...the day will come in her life and it wouldn't be a dream, it would all be real. The colors, the smiles, the whole wedding attire... and the 'I Do' part which would complete the event of her lifetime.

Roof Top

Sitting with you after such a long time, there's so much to say but I'm enjoying our silence too.
That smile on your face says it all to me, that you missed me and loved me just the same each day.

It's another year for us, for our togetherness.. you seem to have bought me a lot of surprises. But, all I got for you is a handmade card. With a little ink of blue and purple saying how much you were missed when you were gone. And a little bit of red, which says, that my heart is still fond of you just like before, but you are someone special who I can't part with. You stay the closest, closest to my heart.
The wind blowing steadily, making the moment so romantic. As if it was speaking for us, instead of us doing our part.

I see your face shining with happiness filled in your eyes. A moment of peace after I read those lines and you come and embrace me saying those magical words again.... I was nothing without you, you just complete me and fill my soul with content, love and peace.
I shall be with thou forever...

Bidding Goodbye

I speak to you, I speak my heart out

I talk to you, I want to be heard

I cry to you, I cry my heart out

I do so because you are my only escape, one who I think would understand

You stand out of the crowd, you are the one in many who cares for me more than anyone else.

You are my shadow, you are that one piece of me which is inseparable
You are near me, yet so far away from me
You give me happiness, you give me peace, yet you give me a sharp aching pain
A pain which is killing me silently,
I swear that I will never be back to you again, not even if a part of me is dying to see you, hear you... ...not even then.

But I can only confess that you lost a bit of me today, the bit you forgot ever existed
I have taken a step ahead and bid goodbye to you, hoping to see you someday
A day when I am no more a part of you, a day when you shall look upto me, and would have nothing to give back in return
Feeling a little cold inside, or feeling nothing at all...
That day you would bid me goodbye, a goodbye which would last forever in your memories, just to keep me alive... at least there's where I would only exist..............

Goodbye stranger!

Pencil Queens

Poetic Bundle

Another You

It is just another lonely night.

Just another night without you by my side. 

With no one to turn into, with no one to hold on tight.

It is one of those nights where I see blue, but only wished if I could see you.

Why can't it be one of those nights when I held onto you?

Why can't the sound of your voice be real, probably like the one when you screamed my name when I ran into you?

You were so warm, you were right there looking through my eyes, peeking in my soul.

Probably it was you or just my thought which was thinking of you.

I just so wish that you were real, as real as the real you...

Dark Desire

In the midst of the darkness I could only think of you.

My only hope, my only light is just when I think of you.

The sound of emptiness within and out, surrounds me always with the thought of you.

Only if thoughts could live, I would give my life to it to be back to you.

You still hunt me in my thoughts. 

You always walked with me through the lights.

You just missed walking with me through the dark.

That is where I am still waiting for you.

Standing in the dark corners of your mind is where you shall find me now.

With a smile, a rose and a candle in my hand, making way only for you.

I am waiting for you to turn on the lights, turn it on for this lifetime and the next one again.

Show it to the world I wasn't wrong in thinking about you while you were gone.

You have been my hope, you have been my desire.

You shall live in my heart, in my heart forever....

Green Aisle

The way you touch my hand and walk with me through the night. 

It makes me feel complete, it makes me feel light.

Can't stop staring at your eyes, in awe of your charm.

It still gives me chill, which runs through out inside.

It is grand out here with stars surrounding us in the sky.

The lush green trees on either sides, seem like welcoming us tonight.

A bit of green on the left, a bit of green on the right, 

With a bit of green under our feet and a starry studded sky.

It makes me feel you made it all for me, for us to start a life.

I walk with you through this path together, making a vow for a lifetime.

It is you who shall I see before I sleep and you who I wake up to.

Walking with you in this green aisle together, makes me feel I am with my life forever.

Freedom

Just came up with this random thought while I was half asleep last night and couldn't help myself so woke up and started scribbling it down. The thought was a free term, Freedom. To most it means a feeling or emotion to feel free from worries, troubles, thoughts, people, situations and many more. Most of us come across this word many a time during the day, while working, while driving, while cooking, while reading, while walking, as a matter of fact innumerable times and we all think about it right at the back of our minds. Thinking about it rigorously or may be even calmly sometimes trying to share it with some and sometimes keeping it to self or should I say most times keeping it to self. Well to me it occurs this way. To me freedom here would be a feeling which would not stop me from sharing things with someone which I’m thinking of, it could be about something or about someone which hardly matters. But what really matters is the freedom of being able to share my thoughts (which are free and keep popping in my mind) with someone every second I blink. It’s hard at times to share things with people but at the same time it is harder to keep things to oneself. The more we keep doing it the more we keep killing ourselves slowly and moderately. There have been so many books written and so many researches done by learned people to study the mind and its various affairs but has anyone ever wondered why we keep thinking on and on without break or any gap. I have no idea to it too as I’m not a genius either, neither do I wish to become one. 

A simple thought which came to my mind and led me to reach out to you saying just one thing. Do you freely choose to share whatever you are thinking of or do you choose to choose from the thoughts and then make a choice of sharing it? Well, aren't we making it way too complicated by keeping most things to ourselves? Who knows we might be one step away from making something big or winning a fortune or even making it to the Guinness records? Why do we always get stuck with complications while we can just sit back with a bucket of popcorn watching a movie giving a damn to the whole damn world? 

Hmm… I guess a single mistake which most of us do is not giving a chance to free our mind thereby freeing our souls. Once that is done we are half way through. And freeing our mind could be done by being able to share what we think of. Just give it a thought… a free thought and share it with me if you like. I’m free to listen to it… and will share my thought as well.

Love Fights !!

A new place, a new environment, a complete different atmosphere I’m in. Sitting in my room I’m looking outside the window I can clearly see the blue sky with beautiful clouds running away giving a sense of freedom. As I get my eyes below I see a beautiful couple standing in their balcony spending their quality time with two coffee mugs and lots to share, laugh and talk about. A week full of bygone frustration and pressure at work and also the fights they must have had which made them do silly things for which wifey dear must have quit talking to her man. She just happened to look away from her husband as he was talking about his difficult colleagues only  then something caught her eye and she froze for a second. A good looking man driving by just glanced at her smiling and before wifey could smile back her hubby dear caught her staring him and gave the man passing by a good long angry look. Wifey dear was embarrassed and just saw deeply into hubby’s eyes touching his hands giving him an affirmation that he meant the world to her. Taking one sip after the other they were silenced for a long time.

A moment to die for, a moment you can’t live without, a moment to have someone holding you so tight that you would never feel that the moment ever ends. That’s what that moment was speaking aloud to the couple who spoke nothing at all, yet they had so much to say to each other.

Now I think I too need a cup of coffee ……